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  • That Giggle.

    Jun 2 2011, 19h03

    Story. Quick wun. No start. No end. Just read.

    I was walking home the other night, it was about half 11 and it was really misty, and i saw a little girl in a yellow dress walking through the park on her own. I watched her to see where she went, but she was going too far to see, so i followed her. She went behind a tree, so i waited for her to come out, but after about 3 minutes, she still hadn't come out. I went up to the tree to see what was happening, but there was nothing there.
    I turned around all confused and there she was, standing right behind me holding a lolly pop. I asked her if she was okay, but she said nothing. I asked her if she was with anybody, but she said nothing. Then all of a sudden, she gave me her half-sucked lolly pop, giggled and ran off into the mist. I couldn't see her anymore, so i chased after her. I was curious as to why she was here and where she'd come from.
    There i am running through the park, almost midnight and misty as hell. Eventually i come to the stream that runs all the way through to the river and i still hadn't caught up to her. It was too wide for somebody her size to have gone over, and there was nowhere else for her to have run off to.
    She'd disappeared. All that was left was this half-sucked lolly.
    I couldn't be bothered to go on a search at this time of night, i was tired and it was cold. So i threw the lolly into the stream and started making my way home.
    Every so often i'd hear a feint, distant giggle. I looked around to but couldn't for the life of me see where it was coming from. I was kind of spooked at this point so i started walking faster, and faster, and faster until i was running. These giggles just kept getting more frequent and louder as i got closer to home.
    I was sweating, but it must have been atleast -5 degrees out. I got to a road that was pretty wide, so the mist had fell into that aswell. But that just put me more on edge, i was getting nervous, this random girl had freaked me out to the point that i was actually paranoid in my own town, and that had never been the case.
    I come up to the crossroads, and i can only just make out the colour of the lights. All of a sudden i see a flash and then i hear a screach and a bang. Then that giggle again, but louder than ever before. There was no way i was waiting for them lights to changed. I ran, fastre than i'd ever ran before. I was actually scared.
    I finally got to the street i live on, and i noticed there were no cars at all, not even parked up outside the houses. Then it occured to me that i hadn't seen a car all night. I'd heard what i assumed was a crash, but i hadn't actually physically seen a car. So i carried on running for my life. I got to my door and what do you know? I can't find my key. I'm looking through all my pockets, and it's just not there. And again, there's that giggle, louder still. So i bang on the door. So loud that it would have woken up the entire street, if there was even anybody there.
    My dad opened the door, with a look of wonder on his face. Probably because i'd just been banging on the door like i was being attacked. I heard my brother crying and i asked him why. He said he'd had a bad dream and as he walked to my mum and dad's room he saw something in the back garden that scared him. He wouldn't leave my mum's room. But my dad said he had couldn't see anything, he even went out there to make sure and there was nothing in sight, and our garden's empty apart from a couple of plant pots.
    So i just ignored it, went in the kitchen to get a drink and then went up to bed. I was still sweating from running home, so just before i got into bed i opened the window. And there she is. Standing in the middle of the garden, staring up at the window.
    All i remember after that is waking up to the sun sitting proud in a clear blue sky, birds singing in time with one another. Mum and dad are sitting at the table eating breakfast and my brother is outside playing with his friend; bright yellow dress, blonde hair, blue eyes. Then that giggle.
  • Lambs v2

    Mai 31 2011, 18h56

    OHMYFUCKINGGODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

    THEY'RE BACK!

    OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. They came back. THEY CAME BACK!

    They're not lamb chops! They just had a shave.

    I literally shouted when we drove past them today, i was so excited. That has made my year.

    Also, i am a saddo =P
  • Lambs

    Mai 20 2011, 22h54

    When i drive to work in the morning i go through the country side, and every morning i look at the animals in the fields, i found them quite interesting sometimes. [Although, when i drive past a field full of cows, but some are laying down and some are standing up, it confuses me.. Is it gonna rain? Are some of them just lazy?] Anway, early March, Lambs appeared in the fields as well, and every day they were the highlight of my day. No matter what, they'd make me smile. I just loved how they pranced around, how they'd follow their mothers wherever she went, how they'd climbs up on random things in the field(sometimes even on top of their mothers!) and how they'd play with each other.

    One day, i really laughed.. I drove passed this one field and there were two lambs quite a bit away from the rest of the sheep. They were back to back, one of them facing one way and one of them facing the other and surrounding them was a circle of blackbirds. I couldn't help but to literally laugh out loud, and if i wasn't doing 60 down a back road i would've pulled over to take a picture.

    There was a small field, with a little hut in it, just outside the town where i worked that had a horse in it. I loved this horse like it was my own, it was just like me! It was all on it's own, but there was more than one horse in all the fields around. He's just stand in the middle of his field with his head down and i felt so sorry for him. One day he was at the fence at the other end of the field becuase the horses in the other field had come over to the fence as well, and i was so proud that he'd made friends. Over the road was another field, this one full of lots of sheep, and when these lambs came along, i sort of started paying them more attention than i did the horse. One day i drove past and i was devastated, he was gone. I felt so bad that i'd stopped paying him attention and looking for him every day, i just hope he's okay..

    Anyway, this field of lambs that had taken over was my favourite bunch of lambs. There was random holes in the field and the lambs would lay in them and you'd just see their heads poking out the top. Becuase it was the closest to work, it was always the first and last thing i saw and always made me smile. No matter how bad my day was at work, when i drove past that field it'd brighten me up and i'd be grinning all the way home.

    About three days ago, it happened again. The whole entire field full of sheep and lambs, gone. But this was worse. Alot worse. They made me smile more than the horse did, all the horse ever did really was upset me because i was feeling sorry for it. The lambs would cheer me up no matter how down i was. But that's not why it was worse. It was worse because it was possible that the horse okay. Maybe it moved fields? Maybe somebody else bought it? But not the lambs. I know what happens to lambs when they get that age. I almost cried..

    Now i'll never see my horse again, god knows where he is the poor thing. I'll never see my lambs again, they're filling shelves in Asda the poor things. What's ever going to brighten up my day at work now?



    Sadface.
  • It's my birthday!

    Mai 15 2011, 18h18

    In 5 hours..

    In all honesty, i'm not entirely happy with it. I don't want to not be 19 anymore, i like being a teenger. In another year i've gonna be a proper grown-up, that SUCKS!

    I quite college 'cause it sucked. I'm in my second job. I pretty much have no life. Is this the norm after being alive for 20 years? Well, atleast i have a plan for a bit of the future, right?

    An open university course on computing(and hopefully/eventually Music) as i had an idea for a website that could possibly make me some money, aswell as help out a community. Besides, if i don't follow through with that, atleast i'll have a 'back-up'.

    Also, i'm not gonna lie, it's quite depressing being this age and single. To be fair, it's probably partly my fault for having such high standards and rejecting every offer i get. If it wasn't such an important part of life, i wouldn't give a shit, but sometimes it can get quite lonely i suppose.

    I guess not having any friends or much of a social life doesn't really help that though does it? Everybody i've ever known throughout my 'childhood'/early teenage years have stabbed me in the back or ditched me at some point with no warning. So i've sort of taken on a defensive stance so nobody can get in because i push everybody away before they have a chance to do any damage.

    Yes, everything that's wrong with my life is my fault. But so is everything that's right.

    Well.. That's me done with being pissed off that it's my birthday tomorrow. It's what you get for being bored and thinking too much about things. I should really stick to my 'No thinking' philosophy, it makes everything so much easier.

    FML )=
  • I got stuck =\

    Mai 11 2011, 16h25

    Well.. I had a day off work, and i got pretty bored. So i decided to brush the dust of my art stuff and draw something. Seeing as i'd just joined Zombie Slayers United i thought to do something related to Zombies.

    I got this far



    and then got bored and couldn't think of something to finish it off with.

    It will forever stay unfinished, until i have time again to come up with an idea for the rest of it, bearing in mind that takes up half a page.
  • A Letter from God to Man.

    Mai 11 2011, 0h56

    Now, i'm not one that believes there is a god or follows a religion, i'm too in touch with science and nature but this isn't about that. I do believe, however, that this is everything that's wrong with the world, which is why i love it so much.

    Hey There, how, how’s it going?
    Long time no see.
    I know I haven’t been around much lately
    But…it didn’t seem like you wanted me to be
    The last time I sent down a message you nailed it to the cross
    So I figured I’d just leave you to it, let you be your own boss

    But I’ve been keeping an eye on you, I have, and it’s amazing how you’ve grown.
    With your technological advances and the problems you’ve overthrown,
    And all the beautiful art you’ve created with such grace and such finesse,
    But I admit there are a few things I’m afraid have impressed me less.

    So I’m writing to apologize for all the horrors committed in my name,
    Although that was never what I intended, I feel I should take my share of the blame.
    All the good I tried to do was corrupted when all the religion got into full swing,
    What I thought were quite clear messages were taken to unusual extremes.
    My teachings taken out of context to meet the agendas of others,
    Interpretations taken to many different ways and hidden meanings discovered

    Religion became a tool, for the weak to control the strong
    With all these new morals and ethics, survival of the fittest was gone
    No longer could the biggest man simply take whatever he needed
    ‘cause damnation was the price if certain rules were not heeded

    Some of the deeds committed in my name just made me wonder where I went wrong.
    Back at the start when I created this, the foundation seemed so strong.
    See all the elements were already here, long before I began, I just kind of put it all together
    I didn’t really think out a long-term plan.

    I made the sun an appropriate distance and laid the stars across the sky
    So you could navigate the globe or simply watch the sun rise
    I covered the earth with plants and fruits,
    Some for sustenance and some for beauty
    I made the sun shine and the clouds rain so their maintenance wasn’t your duty
    I tried to give each creature its own attributes without making them enveloped
    I gave you all you all your own space to grow and in your own way space to develop

    I didn’t know such development would cause rifts and jealousy
    Cause you to war against each other and leave marks on this planet indelibly
    You see, I wasn’t really the creater, I was just the curator of nature
    And I want to get something straight with homosexuals right now: I don’t hate ya
    I was a simple being that happened to be the first to wield such powers
    I just laid the ground, it was you that built the towers

    It was you that invented bombs, and the fear that comes with them
    And it was you that invented money, and the corrupt economic systems
    You invented terms like just-war and terms like friendly fire
    And it was you that didn’t know when to stop digging deeper, when to stop building higher
    It was you that exhausted the resources I carefully laid out on this earth,
    And it was you that even saw these problems coming but accredited them little worth
    It was you that used my teachings for your own personal gain
    And it was you that committed such tragedies, even though they were in my name

    So I apologize for any mistakes I made, and when my words misconstrued
    But this apology’s to mother nature, cause I created you!