This is one side of life I do not hold very dear. And although I make decisions which might potentially have profound effect on my life, I commit the most unbearable of all acts, by not acting upon them.
I used to be a proactive individual responding to every whim without delay, but now during the most important time of my life I sit here doing nothing.
Part of me, well, a great part of me likes doing nothing, but the part of my mind the lives for the adventure of life is suffering dearly in this titanic struggle.
It is only know that I realize that in order for my life to progress at a more even pace, I must without hesitation act on any sudden rational impulse I have and not continue being the indecisive individual that I am.
Call this introspective, call it whatever you like, I for one see this as the beginning of my new life and the dismissal of the old one.
In the words of the irrepressible Shinji Ikari:
"I mustn't run away, I mustn't run away, I mustn't run away, I mustn't run away."