jesuskiller22

There are a few things about me that I would like to explain. I am socially awkward, and when I say this I am being serious, but maybe I'm just paranoid. I am somewhat of a misanthropist; meaning that I have a general dislike, distrust, contempt, or hatred for the human species. I don't like the government. I have a very hard time trusting people. I have my reasons. I love having peace with people but sometimes it is very difficult for me. I have said and done some things in the past that I regret. I understand that we are all human. I am very understanding. I am not like most guys and I am starting to believe that this is my down fall sometimes. I show so much love but inside I feel so much hate. I am constantly thinking and a lot of times this is a bad thing. I write a lot of poetry. Poetry is a way for me to express my deepest feelings. I also write lyrics and most of my lyrics are about how disgusted I am at the world and the people who live in it. Sometimes I ask myself "Why am I here?" I am never able to answer that question. Sometimes I wish that I wasn't so negative. I hate seeing people upset. When ever I see someone cry it brings me down. When ever I see an old person sitting all alone it makes me sad. I am very dedicated to my close friends. I am very nice and I don't like to start shit. I honestly don't see how anyone could dislike me, unless you are one of those fuckers who judge me by my appearence. That is your flaw and you are a fucking fool. I do not respect dishonesty. I am a very honest person myself. I am only dishonest to the ones that are not worthy of my trust. If you are a liar then you fuckin know you are, and I strongly advise you to not speak to me AT ALL, but liars are stupid people that will talk to you anyway and try to gain your trust. Once I catch you in your lies then you are gone, and I don't recycle garbage like you. Also there are some ingorant people who like to talk shit on me. The thing is that I don't give a fuck so go head and talk all shit on me because I know for a fact that I'm a better person than you and my personality proves it. I am not being stuck up in any way. I just so happen to know the truth about myself and you can talk shit and make shit up about me all you want. I have pride, and you are just a subexistance in my eyes. You are nothing and that makes you disposable. To me you are a piece of trash that belongs in a dumpster. If you just so happen to have a problem with who I am and who I choose to be, then make like a non-rechargable battery and fucking die. I absolutly HATE liars, cheaters, control freaks, greed, the government, racism, discrimination, bigots, rape, war, Hot Topic, homework(work is for fucking school), capital punishment, anti-gays(love is love you asshole), animal testing, vivisection, conformity, fat people who don't do anything to lose weight yet they still bitch and moan about how fat they are(FUCKING DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT), Suicide Silence(along with all those other stupid fucking deathcore bands), sluts, people who smoke pot all the time, people who do drugs all the time, people who drink all the time(it is ok to have fun but you also need to know when to chill out), when people tell me to text them and they don't even have the common fucking decency to ask me if I even have a god damn cell phone(which I don't), when middle school girls flirt with me(DON'T FUCKING DO IT), my biological father, sports,girls who lie about their age(lying about your age is fucking pathetic), bees/wasps, getting sick, headaches, the fact that there is such thing as a S.T.D., school, boredom, when people ask me if I'm goth, when people ask me if I'm emo(I AM NOT FUCKING EMO, I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU), when people think it is fun/amusing/funny to piss me off, country music, who ever created that "punk goes crunk" bullshit(what the fuck are you trying to prove by destroying real fuckin music). When it comes to developing a serious relationship with a girl I want someone who is different. Someone who isn't like all you basic people who lie, cheat, betray, and destroy all the beauty in this world. All you ever want to do is have sex, get into fights, do drugs, and get respect that you don't deserve. You make me sick. Keep out of my life. I want to meet someone who is caring. Someone that likes the same music as me. Someone that can keep their promises. Someone who can keep their legs closed. Someone poetic. Someone that I can trust. Someone that doesn't smoke very much or at all. Someone who doesn't drink a lot. Someone that doesn't smoke pot or do drugs all the time. Someone who understands my personality. Someone that won't get bored with me. But with today's generation I doubt that I will ever meet that person,and I find that to be extremely pathetic.....