• A cloudy sky, no horizon

    Nov 12 2008, 15h49

    I would be crying tears of laughter
    If I could see me smile again

    I still reach for the stars, but all I touch is my horizon
    I still believe my eyes, but all I see is my blindness
    I still reach for the stars, but all I touch is my horizon
    I still believe my ears, but all I hear is lasting silence

    Like a disciple of a witness
    I judge upon my sacred eye
    Still found the origin
    In what's left of me inside

    Can I call this my burden
    Or is this just my dream to fly?

    Weaker, weaker every day
    I forgot my urge to fly away

    And is my life as bare as it is?
    Cold and lonely enough?
    ...

    I drop my eyes and shiver as I see
    The reflection in the mirror of me
    ...

    (Diary of Dreams, Tears of Laughter)
  • Thoughts while looking back and forward...

    Nov 4 2008, 11h02

    So here I stand
    Completely alone
    My skin absorbs the rain

    Helpless to control
    Pieces within the whole
    I can feel it starting again

    A sudden descent
    I never meant
    To manifest itself

    Caught unaware
    In frozen air
    By visions sent in stealth

    How far I've fallen
    Dancing in the ruins of Purgatory
    My time is borrowed
    But still I waste away

    ...

    Watch the world pass
    Through broken glass
    And wonder what went wrong

    Monuments fall
    On shattered walls
    We once believed were strong

    Our false beliefs
    Are merely thieves
    That steal our precious time

    And off they flee
    In symmetry
    Never punished for their crimes

    How far we've fallen
    Dancing in the ruins of Purgatory
    Our time is borrowed
    But still we waste away

    (Assemblage 23 - Purgatory)

    I tried I failed to forgive
    For the life you made me live
    A confusing ride at best
    And at its worst it seemed so meaningless

    If there's a lesson to be learned
    Some sort of wisdom to be earned
    It held too great a price
    It required too great a sacrifice

    Like a tide recedes from rocky shores
    I drew back no matter how much you implored
    I have failed to see the beauty here
    Everything I loved has disappeared

    (Assemblage 23 - Tried)
  • Images of Gothic Festival

    Jul 29 2008, 14h24

  • So far, so good

    Mai 30 2008, 9h29

    I smile a lot more these days... :)

    Suddenly you smile
    And turn to look at me
    Did I just learn to walk?
    You’re dancing, I’d say

    Will we learn to fly
    Or fall and fade away
    Trust your heart, my love
    Wake up the dreamer

    Suddenly you smile
    And turn to look at me
    Did we just learn to walk
    We’re dancing, I’d say

    If you’re afraid to fly
    Or fail and fade away
    I will hold you tight
    I’ll never walk away

    Seabound - The Promise
  • Tribute to the greatest parties...

    Jan 28 2008, 17h34

  • Edge of the Deep Green Sea

    Dez 30 2007, 13h48

    One of my all time favorites...

    Every time we do this
    I fall for her
    Wave after wave after wave
    It's all for her
    I know this can't be wrong I say
    (and I'll lie to keep her happy)
    As long as I know that you know
    That today I belong
    Right here with you
    Right here with you...
    And so we watch the sun come up
    From the edge of the deep green sea
    And she listens like her head's on fire
    Like she wants to believe in me
    So I try
    Put your hands in the sky
    Surrender
    Remember
    We'll be here forever
    And we'll never say goodbye...

    I've never been so
    Colourfully-see-through-head before
    I've never been so
    Wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more
    And all I want is to keep it like this
    You and me alone
    A secret kiss
    And don't go home
    Don't go away
    Don't let this end
    Please stay
    Not just for today

    Never never never never never let me go she says
    Hold me like this for a hundred thousand million days
    But suddenly she slows
    And looks down at my breaking face
    Why do you cry? what did i say?
    But it's just rain I smile
    Brushing my tears away...

    I wish I could just stop
    I know another moment will break my heart
    Too many tears
    Too many times
    Too many years i've cried over you

    How much more can we use it up?
    Drink it dry?
    Take this drug?
    Looking for something forever gone
    But something
    We will always want?

    Why why why are you letting me go? she says
    I feel you pulling back
    I feel you changing shape...
    And just as i'm breaking free
    She hangs herself in front of me
    Slips her dress like a flag to the floor
    And hands in the sky
    Surrenders it all...

    I wish I could just stop
    I know another moment will break my heart
    Too many tears
    Too many times
    Too many years i've cried for you
    It's always the same
    Wake up in the rain
    Head in pain
    Hung in shame
    A different name
    Same old game
    Love in vain
    And miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
    Away from home again...

    The Cure (1993)
  • Diary of Dream's tears of joy

    Nov 23 2007, 9h46

    After tears of laughter, there had to be tears of joy...


    I dared to believe what you said in your sleep
    but a master at this even lies under tears
    I never felt home in a life of regret
    Your embrace was so tight that I woke up at night

    I fell my tears of joy
    revealing my relief
    Finally home
    Finally home
    Finally here on my own!

    I did speak out loud but my voice was too weak
    So my whisper decayed in the silence you left
    Inhaling the truth, digesting the past
    If one thing's for sure then that nothing will last

    Give back what you took, give our wounds time to heal
    My eyes remain closed, as I'm counting the days
    Now I'm paying the price for forsaking my strength
    The last thing I said was a bitter good-bye
  • Comfort...

    Nov 11 2007, 14h18

    So afraid to open your eyes
    You know too well that which awaits you
    Something undefined there in the halflight
    The demon without
    The demon inside to plague and torment you
    Feeling so sure, feeling so uncertain that something is wrong
    Everyone's gone and you have been left behind
    Everyone left the demon inside

    Do you still hear their laughter
    So hard to describe
    You never forget the faces that haunt you
    Awake or asleep, I know you can't tell
    Unable to sleep
    Unable to fight
    Unwilling to wake to open your eyes
    to face your oppressor
    Still you go on convinced it will end

    Can you remember
    a day when it was not, not like this?
    Unsure of yourself, unsure of your thoughts
    Unable to know if what you think is right or wrong
    Still you go on convinced it will end
    Like someone pushes a blade through your mind
    There on the edge where no-one will find you
    Still hearing them laugh
    Is there no light at the end for you

    Why is everything wrong?

    Here I am
    Here I am with these words
    Trying to say something I can't
    Something I can't tell you

    Nothing is wrong
    The demons they have left you
    You were not left behind
    You were not left behind
    So open your eyes
    So open your eyes

    Unable to sleep
    Unable to fight
    Unwilling to wake
    Please open your eyes
    For here I stand
    unable to tell you what I am trying to say

    Nothing is wrong
    Please open your eyes
    Nothing is wrong
    You were not left behind

    Left Behind - VNV Nation
  • Spectators

    Out 23 2007, 15h25

    down on the other side of things
    the triggers fast and light

    bringing home this emptiness
    for which you had to fight
    it doesn't matter if you're giving
    for they do not compromise
    the world will keep you guessing
    until the day you die

    and everyone will say "I told you so"
    yeah they'll all just nod and sigh

    but I'll make a run at something real
    and they'll never even try
    and everyone will say "I told you so"
    yeah they'll all just nod and sigh
    as I go down in a ball of flames
    they'll just watch, I wonder why

    When the people downtown are freezing
    sometimes you cannot hide

    so what can you do it's often true
    then we shift away our eyes
    but maybe that moments ours to live
    and maybe that's what we we're for
    as fate will share a chance with you
    to open up your door

    I don't understand
    why you're just standing there

    I don't understand
    why you don't seem to care

    - Crüxshadows

    "The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear
    And the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown..." - God Module

    ... to hell with the great unknown
  • Jupiter

    Out 14 2007, 12h44

    ... or somewhere out there...

    You feel me.
    Feel with me.
    You see me.
    See with me.
    Feel the waves and I'll be the wave.
    Feel the waves and I'll be the wave.

    You are like the ocean, and I'm like the moonlight,
    it seems,
    I'm only reflecting on your surface,
    But you know I reach your ground.
    You're my ocean, you're my life.
    Let me be within you.
    You're my ocean, you're my life.
    Let me be within you.

    Now the voices in the sky fall silent.
    We're watching the sunset.
    And the stars are now our gardens
    in the coming night,
    which will last far too long, far too long.

    While the blue clouds cover the orange sky,
    the sweet taste of the air, slowly turns bitter.
    The time of shadows has just begun.

    You are like the ocean, and I'm like the moonlight,
    it seems,
    I'm only reflecting on your surface,
    But you know I reach your ground.

    The time of shadows has just begun.

    You are like the ocean, and I'm like the moonlight,
    it seems,
    I'm only reflecting on your surface,
    But you know I reach your ground.
    You're my ocean, you're my life.
    Let me be within you.
    You're my ocean, you're my life.
    Let me be within you.

    (Project Pitchfork)