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This means nothing. This really means nothing.
But I always loved questionnaires.
So here I go,,,



INSTRUCTIONS
1. Put your music player on shuffle.




2. Press forward for each question.




3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.





HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Hassan (feat. h.ben jaffar an harel shachal on zorna) - Balkan Beat Box

WHAT'S YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE?
Dawna - Morphine


WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Happy Birthday – The Birthday Party

WHAT DO STRANGERS THINK OF YOU?
Pacific Coast Highway – Sonic Youth


WHAT DO YOUR EX'S THINK OF YOU?
Sunflower River Blues – Jack Rose

HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
Whoa is me - dredg

HOW WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE IN THE FUTURE?
Checkmate - Gamine


WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Sweet Treat - Smog


WILL YOU HAVE KIDS?
Mourn – The Tiger Lillies


ARE YOU GOOD AT SCHOOL?
Magic in the Air – Badly Drawn Boy


WILL YOU BE SUCCESSFUL IN LIFE?
Weird – The Tiger Lillies


WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Blank - Anywhen


THE SOUNDTRACK OF YOUR LIFE:
Broadcasts For Autumn Term – July Skies


YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIEND ARE:
Init - Junip


WHAT DOES NEXT YEAR HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
There She Goes Again – The Velvet Underground


WHAT DO I SAY WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HARD?
Wear This Dress - Skywave


WHAT SONG WILL I DANCE TO AT MY WEDDING?
La Ahada Yalam – Robert Wyatt


WHAT DO YOU WANT AS A CAREER?
Venus – The Charlottes


YOUR FAVOURITE SAYING?
Let’s take a trip together - Morphine


HOW WILL I DIE?
Sevlemay – Saadet Türköz


THE SONG THAT YOU'LL HAVE AS THE TITLE?
A Day Without Glasses - Lambchop

@ 3/3/2008 ... i removed this one:

Bring out your finest wines
your holy shrines
and let them go
Freed from the chains of
what has remained of a life
that you don’t wanna know
The bass and the drums will
hammer it home
with their marching band of the proud
Celebrate ages,
all life stages,
seas and the winds and the clouds
The message’s been written
from your prison,
see what tomorrow will be

(see what tomorrow will be
see what tomorrow will be
see what tomorrow will be)

Got every reason to believe
that all must decide to break free
Was it a tantrum when you said
that all the laughs were on me
Then i’ll know my bet will win
when the saints go marching in
Then i’ll know my bet will win
when the saints go marching in
Go marching in….

followed by an instrumental part, the one
[part where the violin makes love to the piano and vice versa]

for who wants to know its Gazpacho - Massive Illusion
Massive Illusion


@ 21/3/2008 this one had to make room for next one ^^

I’ve made a good living by dying
Endless wait, grey solace ruling my mind
Constrained by time and drained by the cold,
still I found myself shivering under the rising sun

You are the star, you are the moon
You are the soil where shadows bloom
Casting a light which brings me peace
Where the caverns of death will freeze

The flower never grew
But I love you just the same
Even though like a bird you flew
I will love you just the same

I am the blood, a a fire in your soul …
And I will grow in landscapes so cold

Oh, how I feel you in every single detail,
as you lurk inside my troubled dreams
There is no hope as long we walk this earth,
but you should know my universe screams
It screams for you

I cry for you!

The flower never grew
But I love you just the same
Even though like a bird you flew
I will love you just the same

It's the song "Bloodflower" of the new Draconian album Turning Season Within


@ 29/3/2008

The sorrow of my soul,
earthbound and cold
The tide will never turn
I’ve been dead for years,
drowned in all my tears
Have you forsaken me?

Frequent days of loss,
crawling to the cross
The silence screams so loud
Conquered by the sun,
my fate is done
I’m pulling down the shroud

Blazing through my eyes,
your tender disguise
So far out of reach
A life of dismay turns into grey
Will you abandon me?

Here in the light
It’s pitch black night
A fever on the rise
Dying from within
And reborn into sin
I’m tearing up the sky

Feel the world inside;
the ghost of me calling you
Feel the world inside;
the ghost of me haunting you

This sentient cage,
cutting through time with a blunt smile
Would you help me slit my wrists?
See me cry, help me… DIE!

So frail the veil of life
So beautiful the face of death
Suddenly reveries bloom
into night’s heavy drenching

And life leaves you cold,
weary and old…
It’s hard just to breathe
You know me so well,
I’m going through hell
Won’t you please,
follow me?

Feel the world inside;
the ghost of me calling you
Feel the world inside;
the ghost of me haunting you

You cracked the ice,
and I wept
You covered the sun,
and I slept
You whispered the truth,
and I smiled
You kissed my soul,
and I died

Another beautiful song of the new Draconian album
Turning Season Within, the song Earthbound


@ 5/4/2008

*** following lyrics are from someone
who has a skincrawling voice***
all copyrights are his!!!

Getting close by going far away
Going far by staying here
To the kind of place
Where loneliness ‘s travelling best
Leaving ill and well alone
If all fails
All fails
Let the clock strike upon this resting hour

For now
For now
Leaving point despair
Leaving point hope

Getting lost to find a way back home
Getting back by letting go
Make another thought fall
In the flow of things
And death is just a breath away
But so is life
Saying this, but knowing not
Which scares the most

For now
For now
Leaving point despair
Leaving point hope

Whatever worry
running through the veins
When you go, we go
Whatever worry
Raise the flair
When you’re there
You’re there
Getting close
Abandoning point home
Leaving point despair
Looking up from the rush of things
in the point of life
that is now
the point of life
For now

Thomas Feiner - For Now
Thomas Feiner

also check out Anywhen, album The Opiates

@ 13/4/2008

[Part One - From Hand To Mouth]

From day to day
From hand to mouth
We're turning around
Vicious ritual
Getting used to it all
Falling down again
We're waiting for
The decrees of providence
I don't want to waste
Any more of my life
Live from day to day
Live from hand to mouth
Facing the light
I brush aside your plans
I'm going to have
It all my own way
And when that all shattered I felt I'd broken my fall
Couldn't pretend that I felt strong about us anymore
Without your help I finally started to live my own life
I just want you to know this time

[Part Two - Secret Exhibition]

I just want to feel your sigh on my neck
Want to feel your breath
Feel your need to stay
You don't know my name
Don't know my face
Only thoughts I share in my secret place
Secret exhibition
Cure for loneliness
I've ground to a halt
There's no turning back
You know there are things I just can't forget
You've helped me so much
To learn to be detached
But when that all shattered I felt I'd broken my fall
Couldn't pretend that I felt strong about us anymore
Without that help I finally started to live my own life
And I know I don't need you now
Secret exhibition
Cure for loneliness
Life is much too short to be whiled away with tears
Secret exhibition
Cure for loneliness
I erase you now
I don't need you now
I erase you now with all of my past

[Part Three - Vicious Ritual]

[Instrumental]


Riverside - Second Life Syndrome


@ 25/4/2008

one of my precious ones had to leave (still wont be forgotten)

In the name of desperation
I call your name
A lamentation I sigh
Again and again

Spiritual eclipse
The gateways are closed for me to seek

The night...
A veil of stars, watching
My shadow is born from light
The light of the eye, in darkness

Over troubled waters memories soar
Endlessly, searching night and day
The moonlight caresses a lonely hill
With the calmness of a whisper

I wear a naked soul
A blank face in the streaming water
It is cold in here
Frost scar my coat with dust

Eyes attach to your mute portrait
We spoke only through thoughts
Together we gazed, awaited
Hours brought thirst and the rising sun

Sunbirds leave their dark recesses
Shadows glid the archways

Do not turn your face towards me
Confronting me with my lonliness
You are in a forest unknown
The secret orchard
And your voice is vast and achromatic
But still so precious

Lullaby of the crescent moon took you
Mesmerized, its kaleidoscopic face
Granted you a hollow stare
Another soul within the divine herd

I have kept it
The Awakenth symbol
Hiddin inside the golden shrine
Until we rejoice in the meadow
Of the end
When we both walk the shadows
It will set ablaze and vanish
Black rose immortal

It is getting dark again
Dusk shuffle across the fields
The evening trees moan as if they knew
At night I always dream of you

of course this is an Opeth song, Black Rose Immortal

Albums of the Year

1) Burial - Untrue
Echoey dance vocal snippets, minimal dubstep beats, pops, clicks and crackles - best served on headphones. Gorgeous, late-night inner-city vibe.

2) Bachi da pietra - Non Io
Italian alt blues guitar, voice and percussion - like a mellowed-out Caspar Brötzmann. Sort of.

3) José González - In Our Nature
If someone had told me 2 years ago I'd soon get into this acoustic folky shit I'd have laughed. Cover of Massive Attack's "Teardrop" is even better than the original...

4) Dave Gahan - Hourglass
Stong electronic pop from frontman of Depeche Mode. "Saw Something" is more lovely than anything I ever expected from Dave sans Martin Gore.

5) Interpol - Our Love to Admire
Oh how Interpol divide opinion. "Joy Division rip-off!" Yes Paul Banks sounds like Ian Curtis, but that's where it ends. Joy Division were stark and raw - Interpol are fleshed out and sumptuous and that.

The rest...
Andy Stott - Merciless
Angels Of Light - We Are Him
Blotnik Brothers - Mizuage
Blues Control - Blues Control
Einstürzende Neubauten - Alles Wieder Offen
Grinderman - Grinderman
Panda Bear - Person Pitch
Porn Sword Tobacco - New Exclusive Olympic Heights
Recoil - subHuman
Siouxsie Sioux - Mantaray
Throbbing Gristle - Part Two: The Endless Not
Von Südenfed - Tromatic Reflexxions

How could I forget?
Editors new album. Not played it yet. Silly me.

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Tracks of the Year

Battles - "Atlas" from Mirrored
Someone suggested this sounds like Ewoks doing post rock and they were bob-on. Vocals pitch-shifted back and forth alongside rigid guitar/drums/electronics/loops. Was a highlight on Later with Jools Holland, but I lost interest with the rest of the album, as utterly fashionable as it is.

The Gossip - "Standing in the Way of Control"
Banging dance pop, belting vocals and bouncy, dirty bass.

Serebro - "Song No.1"
Russia's Eurovision entry. Yes, that's right. It had all the hallmarks of a UK number 1 pop hit , however with sheep mentality absent from phone voting, the UK votes were all over the place and we gave 12 points to some other rubbish. Great bouncing girlie pop with balls.

Gym Class Heroes - "Cupid's Chokehold"
It's that rap tune with the Supertramp sample. Love it or hate it catchy pop.

Ghosts - "The World Is Outside"
Bland verses actually, but the indie-pop chorus stuck in my head for days.

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Honorary Albums of the Year
Stuff I discovered in 2007.

Ulver - Perdition City (2001)
Slick sax-infused trip-hop electronica. A mostly instrumental soundtrack for a late night. Ulver were once a (frankly unlistenable) black metal outfit so delve into the back catalogue at your peril.

Cult of Luna - Salvation (2002) + Somewhere along the Highway (2006)
Swedish doom metal. Gentle acoustic guitars build up crescendo-like into a crushing sonic powerdrive.

Allerseelen - Abentuerliches Herz (2002)
This album moves from Neubauten-esque industrial to acoustic loveliness to dance beats and ends with a metal guitar whine followed by a Wagnerian string motif. And still manages to gel really well as a whole.

Henrik Nordvargr Bjorkk - Vitagen (2005)
Dark doomscapes conjouring imagery of dark towers, windy tunnels and downright creepiness.

Reuber - Südpol
Rolling electronic soundscapes, this was perfect on a sunny and breezy day on the beach.

The rest...
AZ - The Format (2006)
Burial - Burial (2006)
Isis - Oceanic (2002) + Panopticon (2004)
Old Man Gloom - Christmas (2004)
Melvins - A Senile Animal (2006) + Stag (1996)
Monolake - Polygon Cities (2005)
Sahg - I (2006)
Sunn O))) & Boris - Altar (2006)

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Honorary Tracks of the Year

Anywhen - "The Siren Song" + "Postcard" from The Opiates (2001)
"The Siren Song" is possibly the saddest song ever to have been played into these ears. The whole album isn't bad but the other tracks are far outshined by these two.

Sunn O)))
- "My Wall" from White 1 (2003)
- "It Took the Night to Believe" from Black One (2005)
"My Wall" is percussionless crushing monolithic doom that's 25 minutes long. Julian Cope provides OTT spoken word nonsense, but when he eventually shuts his mouth (pun intended) that's when it really opens up into the sound of planets forming. "It Took the Night to Believe" is some scary shit with black metal vocals just this side of laughable.

Clutch - "Burning Beard" from Robot Hive / Exodus (2005)
Full on metal with a strange time signature. Yet to give the album a proper listen. Rock!

Blotnik Brothers - "Electro Manifesto (Beats on Demand)" from Museful Revolution EP (2004)
Remember 1984? Spinning on your back on the kitchen lino? This cool modern electro would be great for twirling away on the laminate flooring of 2007.

Afrika Bambaataa - "Ain't Talkin' No Shhh" from Dark Matter Moving at the Speed of Light (2004)
Enormously catchy electro funk.

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Lustiges iTunes auf Party-Jukebox stellen, die Anfangszeilen der 30 ersten Lieder hier aufschreiben und hoffen, dass diesmal mehr Lieder herausgefunden werden als letztes Mal :P Viel Spaß. Ach ja, Google ist böse :P

1. Kein schmaler Grad mehr, kein Unten kein Oben,
du hättest während du schliefst alle Wolken verschoben
--> Wir sind Helden - Keine Angst Mehr


2. Wir sind viele, jeder Einzelne von uns,
wir sind viele, jeder geheime Wunsch
--> Tocotronic - Wir sind viele

3. She scratches a letter into a wall made of stone,
maybe someday another child won't feel as alone as she does

4. If the love between us has faded away, left in the rain, scratching at the stains

5. Don't kid yourself and don't fool yourself,
this love's too good to last and I'm too old to dream
--> Muse - Blackout

6. Ein Tag wie im Streit, Einfall im Fall,
bewusstlos kreuz Gelb-Grün als Beweis in meinen Händen
--> Klez.E - Tag im Fall

7. All I wanted was the chance to say I would like to see you in the morning, rolling over to have you there

8. Embarrassed, possessed and so uncivilised,
just take a look at the whites of my eyes

9. Draußen im Regen, Tag oder Nacht,
was ich nicht sehen kann hab ich mir ausgedacht
--> Virginia Jetzt! - Draußen im Regen

10. Jesus, don't cry, you can rely on me, honey,
you can combine anything you want

11. The lightning struck at 7 o'clock, perhaps a quarter, too. At first I thought "Oh, I must have tripped!" and hit my head on you
--> Tiger Tunes - aaa1

12. You were the mother of three girls so sweet, who stormed through your turnstile and climbed to the street
--> Death Cab for Cutie - Death of an Interior Decorator
13. Wir sind alle nur Statisten hier, du auch, du auch, du auch, du auch. Komm her und sieh was hier passiert, passiert.
--> Klez.E - Du Auch

14. Ich freu mich für dich, du bist endlich zu Zweit, wer zu Zweit ist hat für Dritte nur noch halb so viel Zeit
--> Judith Holofernes - Ich Freu Mich für Dich

15. Betty Caine, in her long lost spider garden, and Betty Caine knows the steps and secret places, all too bloody well
--> Anywhen - Betty Caine

16. She said meet me at the gates at 8, leave now don't be late, she said one day she'd walk away cos I was always late

17. Trouble falls in my home, troubled man, troubled stone, turn a mountain of lies, turn a card for my life
--> Sufjan Stevens - The Man Of Metropolis Steals Our Heart


18. Wir unter einer Discokugel suchen unser Heimatland,
das haben wir nie benannt und ihr Herz ist ein Schmetterling
--> Dorfdisko - Adieu, Adieu

19. I broke you in the canyon, I drowned you in the lake, you a snake that I would trample, only thing I'd not embrace
--> Alice in Chains - Dam That River

20. Langeweile besäuft sich meilenweit, ich zähl die Ringe an meiner Hand, dort draußen alles dreht sich still um nichts herum und ich male deine Schatten an jede Wand
--> Selig - Ohne Dich

21. Hey, I would really like to talk with you. Girl, do you have the time to stop, say, all I wanna do is rock
--> Travis - All I Wanna Do Is Rock

22. So you've got your own little story to tell, some girls they ask to put them on your knees, slowdown, it's hard enough to get along.
--> Phoenix - Lost And Found

23. I was about to change, but you stayed the same, had pinned against the wall that we are preordained if they gave you extra scenes
--> Nada Surf - Armies Walk

24. Was diese Grenzen anbelangt, so ist bekannt ja anerkannt, dass sie meistens fließend sind, das sagtest du trinkend.
--> Tocotronic - Die Grenzen des guten Geschmacks 2

25. Childbirth tears upon her muscle, very first second a screaming icon, babies in time barely even recognise, words that once stroked now bruising tired lips

26. Running down the street I know, all too well and it feels like I've been put under a spell and I've tried hard to break it to make it

27. You fucking thing, I waste my life, waste petty cash, disrupt my peace, I just can’t seem to make you die
--> Tiger Tunes - Charlie

28. I take a breath and pull the air in until there's nothing left, I'm feeling green like teenage lovers between the sheets
--> The Postal Service - Recycled Air

29. I want to hear drums and my hearts a drum, I guess we never know what to become. Well I didnt know that this was such a problem.
--> Shout Out Louds - Wish I Was Dead Pt. 2

30. Ich find keinen Schlaf, alle sagen alles sei in Ordnung, wenn ich die Augen schließ, seh ich einen Tunnel am Ende aller Lichter
--> popdolmetscher - Warum fällt ständig Regen auf mich?

... der zu deiner derzeitigen Gefühlslage passt:
The Album Leaf - Red-Eye
16 Horsepower - "Burning Bush"

... von dem du Gänsehaut bekommst:
65daysofstatic - "Don't go down to sorrow"
Ostinato - "Antiaircraft"

... der dich dazu bringt, jemanden töten zu wollen:
Refused - "New Noise"

... der dir Kopfweh bereitet:
Die Sterne - "Räuber und Gedärm"

... der dich traurig macht:
Anywhen - "All that numbs you"

... der dich depressiv macht:
Antony & The Johnsons - "Hope there's someone"

... den du schon live gehört hast:
Mogwai- "Hunted by a freak"

... bei dem du weinen musst:
Muse- "Feeling Good"
Porcupine Tree - "Lips of Ashes"

... der dir etwas bedeutet:
Depeche Mode - "Damaged People"

... der dich an den Sommer erinnert:
VAST - "Touched"

...den du liebst:
Cold - "Wasted Years"
Bloc Party - "The Prayer"

...bei dem du sofort gute Laune bekommst:
The Gossip - "Yr mangled Heart"


Eventuelle Änderungen sind natürlich jederzeit möglich.

This couple of months have been quite miserable, although I had someone really close to share the misery with. It didn't work so smooth, and I had to stop for a while, get few breaths of fresh air, feel that I'm still alive, and that some obstacles along the way (or just misfortunes as some might call them) doesn't mean that some really important things in life (like true and only love) are meant to change or end. Maybe just elevate, or as I like to say - evolve.

Life's is just really weird, and destiny's got a strange way of changing the scripts, that we thought were written a long time ago. And as soon as we understand that, pretty simple yet tricky fact of existance, well...we will feel more complete and...to put it diffrently..free, and quite happy actually.

I would like to thank some great bands, that I've shared time and emotions in this hard and mind-bending time for me:

my beloved Oceansize

also magical Mogwai

breathtaking songs of Jeremy Enigk

intense and emotionally close to me as no other Editors

Switchfoot for 2 special songs that kept my heart beating (Only Hope and Learning To Breathe from which I named that little note )

And last but not least, couple of bands that represent that eerie indie/post-rock/slowcore/melancholic/sensual landscape in my life :

Kashmir, Mew, Under Byen, Sciflyer, dredg, The White Birch, Anywhen, Low, Pelican, Archive and Red Sparowes

VERY SPECIAL THANX to twilight for giving me the opportunity, and unquestionable pleasure and satisfaction of listening to music of such great standarts. I have in mind right now beautifuly intimite music of American Football , Owen, and July Skies in which I'm actually falling in love :)

Take care Y'All :)

When I was first listening to this track, I was watching a short film. It was featured in the end titles and throughout the film and really impressed my.
I don't remember the name of the flick, but it was about two punks(?)that get kinda on the ride of their lives. Not much story, kinda road movie like, but lots of emotion and a nice twist.

When I think about it, Girl From the North Country really fits in there, but it actually had to grow on me.
You had the option to give comments to those short films on a website and I wrote that Thomas Feiner, or better the music of his band Anywhen would be accomplishing best, what seemed to be intended in the film.

Maybe that isn't true all the way, but if you get a chance to listen to The Opiates without haste, do it, you'll find it a masterpiece.

Mr. Dylan, despite your voice, that makes me being unable to listen to nearly all of your tracks, this one really got me.