How are you feeling?

Horny as fuck.

Crappy and lifeless.

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Generally annoyed, bored, and unwilling to do anything. Oh, and lonely too, but that's a given.

Sad (as always) :( and no one cares :(

Well, since I'm such a failure, a nuissance, and an unpleasant asshole I guess I should make an effort to be even more unpleasant and improve my ability to bother another people and fuck myself up. I'm apparently good at it.

Without sounding overly dramatic, I can safely say that I hit the bottom today. There are two outcomes of this: I'll either get better or I'll just fucking kill myself...

..nah, I won't, I'm too much of a fucking pussy to do it, but this makes no sense anymore, if it ever did.

I think the one word that can describe my current state of mind is.. catatonia.


I admitted I need help long time ago... but I finally admit that I can't fight it alone, I'm fighting a loosing battle.

I feel amazingly well because I managed to make somebody smile.

In calmness and mild melancholy....

changa.. allowed me to deconstruct my ego, turn it inside out, reduce it to nothingness, which was the place of its birth, along with every thing and no thing. truly nothingness is the birth place of somethingness... and the some thing which is the conception of infinite love was born from the holy ground of no thing. whatever this experience is, it was born from the same place as infinite love and i know that, so i am activelty seeking it - not wo a recognition of infinite fear, either.. im an aware being making a conscious choice, which is what can be done in this incarnation in which we are currently immersed.

Fake.